Patience? What patience?

The two week wait is almost over - only three days to go! I have been SO patient, making sure I don't test too soon. But, today I buckled and caved in to temptation, I know - it was too early - but, the tests I have are supersensitive and on the instruction leaflet (which I should know off by heart by now!) it says you can test as early as 7-10 days after conception. Well it was 10 days today, and I couldn't resist. What happened was that this ever so faint second line showed up on the test. I am actually feeling quite calm about it, I'm not taking it for granted (yet!) and I also can't guarantee that I won't test again tomorrow. Did you know that the HCG levels double each day from conception until proposed period is due? It is handy reading these instruction leaflets occasionally, you can actually learn something :o) So, on that note I am hoping that if (when) I test tomorrow then double the HCG will be present which means I shall get a stronger reading. Ah, positive thinking, you can't beat it! I FEEL pregnant. I have this horrible bitter taste in my mouth (which I had last time I was pregnant) food is tasting different, though funnily enough the only food that tastes different is the food I should be cutting down on; Boost chocolate bars, jammy dodgers, even prawn cocktail crisps tasted off today! Grapes on the other hand are yummy :o) Had that as a craving last time too (my mother said she had the same when she was pregnant with me!) and I can't seem to get enough marmite each day - though not too strong, made that mistake earlier - made my eyes water! :D

Not really feeling queasy as such, think that any queasy feelings I'm having are more down to nerves about the tests rather than actually being pregnant. I almost couldn't look earlier when I was doing the test, was really nervous that it would be negative - while at the same time telling myself, if it is negative it's because you've tested too early - there's still time!

Matthew is sure that I am pregnant due to the fact that we are part of the way through October and I haven't turned the heating on yet! Usually as soon as it's officially Autumn, on comes the heating! Truth is that I have been feeling really hot lately, especially at night, keep kicking off the duvet feeling that maybe I've got early menopause rather than early pregnancy symptoms, isn't it cruel how nature gives you the same symptoms no matter what stage of womanhood you are?

Plus I keep falling asleep. Now this isn't unusual for me really as I have had M.E. for the past twelve years, but the M.E. is practically cured and my energy levels have been amazing this past year, until the last two weeks that is, where without fail every afternoon around 4.30pm I fall asleep if I'm at home. I think to myself, I'll just relax for a bit, maybe have a short nap then I'll feel better. Then next thing I know is that three hours have passed and Matthew is home from work. Really, nothing is getting done this week! Also I'm having strange dreams during these 'naps'. Today I dreamt of finding two magpies, I thought (during the dream) that's cool - that means two for joy, excellent! Then I saw three eggs in the magpies' nest and then woke up as Matthew walked through the door. I told Matthew about the dream and he said 'what does three symbolise with Magpies?' and I said 'three for a girl'. He's getting smarter than me with this intuition thing, I saw it as maybe I'm having three babies, but no, I think he got it more than I did, maybe the dream is telling me that joy is coming to my life with the pregnancy of my little girl. What do you think? Only time will tell :o)

Well, I'm off to bed now - the annoying thing about having these naps is that I end up wide awake late in the evening and end up going to bed in the early hours of the morning instead, no wonder my sleeping pattern has gone crazy (that and the fact that my cat has learnt how to turn the hifi on at 4am! The other day Matthew thought he was late for work as it usually comes on at 8am and he has to leave at 7am! Bit of a panic, but ok in the end - still managed to wake me up too though :o( )

So, hopefully my next post will have some good news - I will keep you posted :o)